the dancer

ok so i get these panic attacks every few months about dance its such a gambol you can work so hard for so many years and never make it is it so much to ask for a chance. i know i stated late but i have wanted to be a ballerina for as long as i can remember i know it sounds cheese but it is totally true i cant control it. i get this feeling every time i dance like a high but better it the kid of thing people talk about when there in love u know butterflies in you stomach rainbows and unicorns that sort of stuff its awesome there really is no other way to describe it and its not just the dance its the glamor people may say other wise but there all lying its that feeling when you dance and people watch, you know.  but i get so nervous what if i never become good enough its just to scary some times to think about. my teacher makes fun of me because i get these horrible night mares abut it all the time you can ask any of my friends i go a little insane i mean if you know me you remember the tragedy that is the pointe shoes its actually kind of funny.  some times i just don't understand how people can find that same happiness chasing after a ball with a stick in their hands it really doesn't seam all that much fun im t!!.